My DD is 1 year old!
Yay we made it to one years BF'ing and I love it.
However, the last month has been terrible.
She still doesn't sleep through the night, feeds maybe 5 times if not more, I ended up getting a UTI (god knows how I haven't had sex with my husband for more than 6 months!!) and that stressed me out - took antibiotics, it didn't heal and had to get a kidney/bladder scan - long story short it turned out everything was fine - but I'm a hypochondriac so that also stressed me out beyond belief - I thought I had kidney failure.
(I suffer from an anxiety disorder but not on meds and it's really starting to get to me)
Next I got a cold and of course my DD got it as well, she ran a high fever fir two days, woke every hour and one night pretty much slept on the breast, in turn I didn't get any better.
Then a week later - just as I was starting to feel better I got a major herpes attack on my leg!!!
I thought it was bed bugs, my husband was really stressed about this as he recently just lost his job and we are literally down to our last pennies.
So I took myself to ER after it looked like it was getting infected, turns out it was herpes - shingles maybe, however it was infected and I needed antibiotics - so again on the antibiotics,
and the herpes medication, (I can't spell it)
So there I was still with a cold, still a sickly daughter and shingles infected on my thigh and on Clindamycin - stressed out, still not getting any sleep and a cold that started getting worse!
Now its my last day on the antibiotic - and with a cold that isn't getting better.
I've been asking my husband for help and he's been trying to help but he's up late - going to meetings, trying to sort out a job so we can stay in NY and not go back to our parents.
I"m literally exhausted, I am not coping and my daughter who is still a bit sickly (it's been 8 days) still feeds all night and has taken to waking up at 5.30 wanting to get up!
Please tell me I"m not alone in this?
Has anyone experienced such stress and did you get through it?
I want to night wean but too exhausted to ironically.
All I want is one good nights sleep or my husband to help out, my relationship with him is terrible at the moment and I feel completely unsupported, also because I"m a hypochondriac and don't sound sick he's telling me it's all in my head.
Anyway - I love my daughter beyond words and just want what is best for her but I'm losing my mind!!
Any words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated or please share stories ----- this is just me reaching out.
I don't have many friends in this city and none that have had babies!
Thanks so much - sorry for the long winded post!!!!