Re: I gave up for a week and now I'm regretting it :( can I
I'm so sorry you went through such a hard time, mama. When you're stuck in that unending nurse-pump-supplement loop, nursing can feel really unrewarding.
I think the best thing you can do, at this point, is to nurse the baby as much as possible and to pump as much as possible using the best pump possible. I don't think the Freestyle is the best pump for your needs- ideally, you'd go up to a hospital-grade pump. They generally give more stimulation and get more milk in less time. The pills, the herbs, even the drugs- they are all nice, and some moms find that they get a significant boost from them. But none of them will do half as much for you as time spent with a good pump.
Coolest thing my big girl said recently: "How can you tell the world is moving when you are standing on it?"
Coolest thing my little girl sang recently: "I love dat one-two pupples!"