I have a 5 week old son and I've fed him breastmilk only since he was born. Breastfeeding means a lot to me and I really want to see it through but I've had some challenges that seem to have really made me want to quit and go to formula. After my son was born, I ended up with a horrible spinal headache that made me unable to sit up for the first 2 weeks of his life. So I breastfed laying down, not particularly paying attention to proper latch/position, mainly because I felt so terrible and also because I was naive and didn't know it mattered. Well this resulted in cracked, bloody, gashed nipples on both sides that by week 3 were killing me. I was briefly encouraged to keep going because my son gained 26 oz in 2 weeks, but I dreaded feeding him and then felt guilty for feeling that way. So I went to pumping and bottlefeeding just to get him fed, but I quickly learned how time consuming pumping is, so I tried going back to nursing. Then I ended up with an infected clogged duct on my right side and that set me back, again I dreaded feeding times. It was still extremely painful so I went to a lactation consultant last week. She said my son's latch looks good and she gave me a nipple shield to use. The right nipple is really damaged and she told me to just pump that side until it heals, and nurse from the left side. I have been doing this and it's been working ok but I'm still in quite a bit of pain and my nipples are sore between feeding/pumping. I am just sick of being in constant pain and I am wondering if anyone has any suggestions for improving this or even some encouraging words! My friends keep telling me to hold on and it'll get better but so far it just seems like one thing after another and I don't see how it can improve. Sorry for the long post, just wanted to give the full story (and vent a little).