I apologize, in advance, for the whininess of this post. I'm feeling frustrated and need to vent a little.
First of all, it's hard having a baby who is super laid back about nursing AND having a slowdown in growth. I feel like life would be so much easier if she was ultra-demanding (I know, the grass is always greener...), because then I wouldn't feel so much pressure to "make sure" she's getting enough.
Basically, my 7.5 month old daughter would probably cue around 5-6 times a day. I say "probably" because I honestly don't know, since I've always offered way more than that to keep her up in the 9-11 times per day range. I know that's typically the recommendation in order to ensure they're taking in enough milk, so that's what I've always done. However, she often only nurses a very short time because she just isn't hungry.
Part of my frustration is because I've gotten different advice from a well-known breastfeeding doctor. He told me I should only feed on cue, even if its only 5 times per day, and that as long as she is swallowing well for several minutes per feeding, she's getting plenty. His suggestion as far as some slow growth she's had was to increase my domperidone (which I started on his suggestion to increase my "flow" because of fussiness, not because of weight or diaper issues). His feeling is that more milk in my breasts will mean more weight gain, which makes sense. However, I feel like my daughter already leaves behind milk at nearly every feeding (I know they're never empty, but I can easily express each time after she eats). It's just that she simply doesn't want more. She's NEVER in satisfied or fussy after feedings.
I don't know. I think my anxiety is flaring up.
Anyway, her weight gain was fine until her 6 month check up. She went from 13lbs, 10oz at 4 months to 15lbs even at 6 months. I know growth slows down, but she gained way less than even the minimum average for that age range. Then, at 6months 3weeks, she went in for a sick appointment and was just at 15lbs, 5oz. Granted, she had RSV, so her weight gain was probably reflective of being so sick.
All of this to say, I'm tired of engineering our days worth of feedings, if you know what I mean. I can count on her not cueing, so I basically plan out when I'm going to offer. I think through errands we need to run and plan her feedings accordingly. It just seems so abnormal. Is there a better way to approach this situation? I obviously drop everything and feed her if she does cue (and embarassingly, I don't even know for sure how she cues anymore). But she'll go hours happily if I don't offer her to nurse. Then, most of the time, she'll nurse less than 10 minutes. I can feel my letdowns and she pretty much always gets at least one, so maybe that's plenty?
I feel like I'd have a lot of peace if I did a day or two of pre and post weights, but the closest BF scale to rent is 3 hours away. I've honestly considered driving there, renting it for a day and staying overnight in a hotel just to have an idea of what her intake is. Then I could rest in knowing she's getting plenty of milk in this crazy way I'm having to feed her. And her weight gain is just who she is and not a factor of not enough intake.
Did I mention she is still super distracible and won't nurse in public at all? For that matter, she won't nurse in our living room if the family is home because she's so distracted. That could be because she just isn't hungry all of these times I'm offering her to nurse! Argh!
Should I just back off and only feed her on cue for a while?
Sorry for the vent. I'm just so anxious for her 9 month checkup...and it's 6 weeks away!