Hello all, am new to this site, my little girl is 14 weeks old and I have been mixed feeding her. When she was born I fully breasted for about 2 weeks and I really did not know all the things she was doing were normal - really the cluster feeding was the issue. She would feed non stop unless I went out in the car with her, I hadn't lay down to sleep for that 2 weeks and slept sitting up feeding her. I just assumed co-sleeping was dangerous and not to be done. She didn't lose any weight and gained weight well. She was born small at 5.5lbs but had no issues and nursed great from the first minutes being born. By the second week she had already put on over 1.5lbs and this should have been enough to reassure me really! But the nights and lack of sleep was taking its toll on myself and hubby who was at a loss how to help. So we made the decision to get an electric pump and I would express and feed this as well as still breast feed and give formula at night. Well it worked for a while and then the expressing started to take over so since about 9 weeks I've been nursing about twice a day and formula the rest. So while I'm still happy that she is getting some breast milk I don't even know if its enough to do any good.
What I really want to know is is there any point now in trying to nurse more, would it be hell trying to get my supply back up? I don,t really want to go down the pumping route as I find it so stressful. I want to know all the info first really. I don't really have so much support anymore from hubby as he thinks the way things are are perfect as she gets some of my milk and is also a much happier baby in general now. He had enough of me always talking about it. She is now a good sized baby and thriving between 25 and 50th centiles so I don't want to effect this - quite good from starting at the 0.4th! I know I'm not happy with the decisions iVe made as I constantly look things up and read forums etc. I know I'm not even sounding like I know what I want now, but I find myself saying sorry to her all the time and getting upset. I feel jealous when I see nursing mums. Anyway my little girl has a good latch and loves feeding in the mornings when we lay on our sides I wish midwife could have suggested this those early days! Has anyone been in this situation and felt like this? Thank you for reading such a long post!