Lois is baby number 4, I never managed to BF my other three for long for various reasons but I was determined to get it right this time. Lois was born 3 months premature and was very very sick. She had an unsafe swallow and despite my desperate efforts to encourage breast feeding she was sent home with a feeding tube and oxygen aged 4 months old, a month after she should have been born. From birth I exclusively pumped until around 3 months, when after being told I wasn't allowed to BF her I stopped pumping - I think it was a reaction to the situation and one I came to regret. I had a HUGE supply in the freezer so Lo had exclusively BM until she was around 5 months old. We tried a formula when we knew the BM was running low with a view to moving over, and we discovered a milk allergy. So I decided to re-lactate rather than give her the awful alternatives, and after A LOT of hard work and dedication I was back to full supply wthin 3-4 weeks. During the time I was pumping, we were allowed to start giving milk orally, so between bottles and comfort suckling, Lois started breastfeeding. Not long after, her feeding tube was removed and the day it came out she decided to exclusively breastfeed - this was the greatest and most rewarding achevement in my life! To go through all we had been through, it was so worth it and Lois is still now at 10.5 months old almost exclusively breastfeeding along with eating some solids.
It's been a very emotional journey with Lo with being so poorly and all the things wrong with her, but the highlight is breastfeeding her and our time together during nursing. My current problem is peoples view on feeding this long annd the comments I've started to get.
I should start by saying my partner is 100% supportive of breastfeeding, and for feeding as long as me and Lois want to continue. He has been a complete rock for me along this journey. But other people have started to ask when I plan to stop. I'd always said 'well I'd like to continue to around a year', but as we are nearly here now I don't feel ready to stop and Lois certainly doesn't - she loves nursing! As she's getting bigger people also seem less comfortabe with the idea of me nursing in public, even though I'm quite discreet about it. I feel like the stress of things is taking its toll on my supply and I certainly don't feel very 'full' anymore - maybe thats normal?
I think I need to spend more time around mums who are happy continuing nursing past what seems to be the 'acceptable 1 year limit' I've encountered!