I am returning to work a week from today. I'll be working from home with nanny help Mon and Fri and gone (nanny at home with LO) tues and thurs. Off on wednesdays and home with LO. She is 4.5 months old. We ebf and do lots of baby wearing. I'm basically her everything....which I love but I'm getting really nervous about leaving her. I have three other kids so we've been kinda flying by the seat of our pants : ) No real nap schedule, very little routine, just doing what I have to to keep her happy. She also continues to refuse most bottle attempts. I'm having some luck with a sippy cup but not great.
So my big fear is that when I'm gone she will be miserable. The nanny is an older lady who comes highly recommended but I don't think she will baby wear and I can't imagine she has the stamina to walk Emmie around all day to keep her happy (which is what I do many days). Should I be letting her cry more when she's with m and stop nursing her to sleep to get her used to that? It breaks my heart! But I'd rather her figure it out with me than feel totally abandoned when I have to leave her.
Oh and I have to work and this is a last resort child care option so those variables can't change.
Any encouragement would be greatly appreciated!!