My son had a hard time latching at the hospital, post birth. We gave him a bottle to help with the weight gain, upon the insistence of the hospital. Long slide south ensued - he's got nipple confusion, can't nurse properly at the breast. I pump and feed, formula feed too as it seems impossible to keep ahead of his demand.
It's this cycle of try to nurse, try, try, switch breasts, positions, pump to get the milk flowing then try, etc. he falls asleep, I wake him, try, he doesn't get enough milk (or any?) so he screams, becomes enraged, won't nurse at all. I get engorged, have to formula feed him since I don't have expressed stock, then pump and feed again after I've fed him some formula just to calm him down.
I have two other kids - 4 years old and 2 years old - and very, very little help. I am also going through some PPD and trying to stay somewhat even keeled.
I don't want to give up but I don't know how to make this work.
Also - my husband is really upset with me that this isn't coming together and that added pressure from him plus his anger when he has to feed the baby while I pump or whatever doesn't help. I'm going away next week and will be with my family, so i will have a lot of support and will be able to have a week to pretty much exclusively focus on this