Ok, here is my situation.
My daughter was born two months early, and was in the NICU for five weeks. During those five weeks I couldn't go to the hospital every day because it was over an hour away (no negativity please) so when she did start bottle feeds, I couldn't be there to nurse her 24/7.
When she came home I put her to breast a couple times a day because she still wasn't too coordinated with sucking/swallowing/breathing. And I bottle fed her the rest of the day with milk that I had pumped. For the first two months I was producing milk like no one's business - like 8 oz a session. For about a month now, it has decreased dramatically, I get anywhere from 2-5 oz depending on how long I go between sessions and what time of day it is. it's usually about 3oz.
I was doing so well pumping every three hours, even at night when she was in the NICU. Even when she came home. But at the two month mark when she'd been home for a little bit and I was able to do more, I made the mistake of slacking a bit while pumping. So my supply decreased a bit. But I just started pumping more and it was back up in no time.
My huge concern is my daughter still isn't great at breastfeeding. I have been trying to put her to breast more, but either she starts crying or she will only nurse for about ten minutes and start crying. I'm trying to put her to breast as often as I can so my supply will increase - but it doesn't seem to be working. Mainly I'm assuming because she doesn't nurse that much. And after she either doesn't nurse at all or only does for a few minutes - I have to feed her so I give her a bottle. I know I should put her to breast every feed and just pump at work (now working Thursday through Sunday) but like I just said, after either not eating at all or hardly anything - I have to feed her, she's still hungry!
I read somewhere about how you're not supposed to have your period while nursing, I've had mine since a month after she was born - which I'm told is unusual. So I'm not sure if that has anything to do with it.
I am terrified that I will run out of milk - I just thawed out the last few bottles remaining. So tomorrow I am really going to try to get her to breast all day, but she gets so frustrated so easily I don't want to have to switch to formula, because I know how great the milk is for her. And plus I would feel like I gave up on her.
I feel like I'm being selfish for thinking it's too hard to nurse her like every hour-hour and a half (if I'm lucky enough to have her nurse). And I know for sure that if push comes to shove and I have to switch, when my milk is drying up and my breasts are full and sore I will think "I could be pumping this for her," or in the future like at work on a break I'll think "I could be pumping right now" i truly feel like I'd be giving up. But I feel like it's stressing me out - which I know hinders the supply.
I just bought some Mother's Milk tea (nasty!!!!! but going to try to add honey) and some fenugreek today - so I'm praying those help.
Any advice would help, I'm so very sad and scared!