I am becoming desperate. I had to stop breastfeeding my baby completely on October 30 due to a horrible abscess and numerous drugs and antibiotics that I was warned weren't completely safe for my baby. She was born on September 7th. I got off of the drugs completely by November 17th and attempted to go back to breastfeeding, but to my despair my baby wouldn't take the breast and became angry. I have been trying to go back to breastfeeding but I can't seem to get her to want to take it. I have tried to re-birth once, and everyday in the evenings when I get home from work, I try to breastfeed her by swaddling her, and walking around with her in the cradle position trying to get her to latch on. We bounce and sway back n forth in order to keep her calm. I can't just sit on the couch and attempt because she will become a screaming mess. I am using a nipple shield only because she has at least kinda attempted to suck a couple times from it. She will never suck if it is just my naked breast. I am very depressed about the situation, and have an adequate milk supply that I have kept up by pumping the whole time I was sick, and throwing out the milk. I had so much milk saved up before I became sick that I was able to feed her frozen breast milk the whole time, and even now she still gets pumped breast milk from a bottle since she won't breast feed. If anyone has any ideas or can give me any tips or advice, I would greatly appreciate it, as this breaks my heart.