My LO turns one tomorrow!! We made it!!
She began refusing at 10 weeks old and for about 3 months, would only latch in her sleep. While awake, she would actually cry and arch her back at the sound of my bra unclipping, and wouldn't even permit me to cradle her in any kind of nursing position. She wouldn't let anyone hold her facing them. I had severe over supply and overactive letdown.
So many tears I cried and so many days I felt like I couldn't go on, like my baby hated me. I will always feel like I wished this time away. But maybe it wasn't all sweet baby cuddles and tender moments, and I didn't feel all warm and fuzzy nursing her, but giving her breastmilk was more important than even all of that.
Thank you for supporting me and cheering me on. I literally had just a handful of ppl IRL that even knew what we were going through, and NONE of them truly cared deeply like another nursing mother. I wouldn't wish our nursing problems on my worst enemy!!! I didn't have low supply or a baby with a tongue tie. I had a baby that hated her mother's breasts!!
Anyway, on the eve of her birthday, I am just feeling overwhelmed with emotion. And wanted to reach out and say thank you. You helped me give my baby breastmilk at the breast for these 10 long months. She was never supplemented with artificial baby milk, she refused an artificial nipple as vehemently as my nipples. All the scheduled nursings in her sleep, and alarm setting through the night, and tedious record keeping of nursings and diapers kept her gaining well enough to keep her hitting milestones.
Today, she nurses awake no fewer than 10 times a day, so I feel confident I can nurse her to 24 months and beyond if she wants. She is healthy and thriving and turning ONE tomorrow!