Hello! So I think this would be better if I give a little history. My lo was born on July 25th, so he is just over 3 months. We have just now made it 12 days being ebf, the first few months were challenging but I was very determined. Probably easiest if I start at the very beginning. So while we were in the hospital he wanted to nurse CONSTANTLY. I was doing my best but quite honeslty after a while I started to get very sore nipples (no cracking or bleeding, just very sore). Lactation came down several times to try to help me, told me we were latching great, but as to be expected we didn't really have any milk yet as he was just born.
On the day we were due to be leaving the hospital we had a new nurse. At one point during the morning he was crying and crying. I was at my wits end and my df was trying his best to help out in consoling him but it wasn't working. The nurse came in and said "he probably is ready to nurse again". I was like that just can't be possible he was literally just there for HOURS. She started getting snippy with me as if I was lying or something and I finally just gave in and back to bf we went. After she left and we had finally had him settled down again I handed him back to df and went into the bathroom and cried. I cried both from the pain I was experiencing and from the way she had just treated me, as if I don't know my own child or body and as if I wasn't trying hard enought. So after that we discussed things with the doctor and it was decided to supplement with formula (which I so didn't want to do but I didn't know what else to do).
From there it was a long road of low supply issues, then having to return the loaner pump back to the hospital and use only a manual pump causing my supply to go even lower, and then my doctor failed to order my IUD for my 6 week check up so instead she prescribed me a pill, that I stupidly took before researching it, that contained estrogen and caused me to almost completely dry up at this point. I was so frustrated, angry, upset, depressed...I ended up reaching out to a friend (not so much with the intentions of what happened next, but because she had ppd and I was looking for support), when I had told her what was going on she offered to lend me her pump. I was able to use all my own tubing and such from the hospital, but now actually had a pump. Just having it boosted my confidence big time. So we worked hard, we would nurse, then I would pump right after, for days. Finally one day when mixing up a bottle of formula and the nipple on the bottle leaking and it not mixing well I was like "that's it we are doing this if it's the last thing we do" and that was the last day of formula.
So like I said we are now 12 days ebf, which almost seems unreal to me. I still have to supplement a bottle toward nighttime, but it is from pumped milk from the night before (I usually stay up a few hours after he goes to sleep and then I pump again just before I go to sleep, and he is sleeping through the night so I don't have to nurse him). Now my newest issue with him, I have created a "booby monster". Today he is just constantly on the breast. I don't think he is doing it to eat necessarily because I thought earlier that maybe my supply is low at the time and offered a bottle but he refused it, so I then offered a pacifier and he refused that also. He has also been just generally cranky all day. The only thing helping him is just allowing him to be at the breast, I have him set up on the boppy so that he can just do what he wants as he wants because if I try to take him away he starts screaming and crying. He has also been drooling and spitting up a lot lately. Could this just be a growth spurt or some type of phase? At this point I'm just like ok whats wrong but realistically, I can't eat or do anything of my own like this. I'm just not sure what could be wrong.