I've already learned so much by reading through the forums and I hope you great mamas can help me out now! For a little background, I wasn't allowed to breastfeed our first son (long story due to a medication mix up) and was naive enough to think I could just magically start nursing once we got home. No such luck, he wanted nothing to do with it. I'm sure looking back I could have tried much harder but hindsight is 20/20 right? I pumped for 8 months for him, though I never produced enough for him to get more than 50% of his daily nutrition from BM.
Our second son was born about a month ago. It took some help fromthe nurses but he did latch on after birth. After that though it was a bit of a struggle. I'm very well endowed and my nipples aren't huge or protrude that much, though I don't think they're flat. The nurses all told me i had the "goods" now it was up to him to learn. I could hardly ever get him to latch on for more than 5 minutes the first day and a half. Then he was admitted to the NICU where he stayed for 3 weeks. He needed to wean off a medication I take. And of course he received bottles. He continued to fight nursing there, when one of the nurses (who's training to be a LC) gave me a nipple shield and it made a world of difference. However, i was lucky to be able to get to the hospital to nurse more than 1-2 times per day. He pretty much always latched on but never got much from me.
I've been pumping since day 2, around the clock,and already have a freezer stash of 350oz not counting the fresh milk he gets. I put him to the breast (with the shield) severaltimes per day but he struggles. Fusses a lot, pops on and off, doesn't always take enough in. Sometimes won't suckat all without me dripping in some BM from a bottle or whatever. Often falls asleep or just hangs out with me in his mouth. He's def. getting milk but nowhere near enough. I have an SNS but it is a huge hassle to get up and he hates it without the shield. He wants nothing to do with nursing without the shield either.
Part of me wants to throw in the towel and just pump, part of me wants to go full force and get him EBF, and then another part of me is just happy that he DOES nurse, albeit just a little. I'm clueless as to where to go from here, how to get him off the shield, how to get himto actually take a full feed from me,etc. I tried just nursing right after he came home but only pumping 3-4 times a day my supply started to tank and I got super engorged and in major pain. I've read all the articles but everything seems to either not work or is a huge battle. I know this won't be easy but am just lost as to thebest way to go about this. Will it just "click" one day if I keep offering? Thank you so much