Re: Mixed feelings?
Definitely normal to have mixed emotions about nursing, especially as time wears on and your baby transitions to being a toddler. I sometimes feel super-irritated by my 2 year-old's nursing habits! Those feelings of irritation and of being "squicked out" tend to come and go, though. Some days I look down at my nursing toddler and think "Awww, it goes so fast, look how sweet she is" and sometimes I think "Get. Off. Me."
One nice thing about toddler nursing is that you can set limits. As your kid's language skills improve, you'll be able to communicate things to him like "Not now, wait until we get to the car" or "Not at the pool, why don't you go splash with Daddy?" or "You can nurse, but only until I count to five". And as his dependence on your milk decreases, you'll be able to offer snacks or sippies when you want to distract baby from the breast.
When it comes to the marital issue of "I can't wait until they are all mine again", I get that, too. And then I look my DH in the eye and say "No, I can't wait until they are MINE again". IMO, a woman's breasts are HER property, and men need to get over themselves! That being said, try wearing a cute bra during sex and see if that gives your husband some of the visual stimulus he enjoys while allowing you to feel like your breasts are off-limits. If your DH is weirded out by the idea of milk being expressed during sex, you can remind him that it often comes out when a woman is super-aroused, often during orgasm. he might want to view it as proof that he's doing a good job!
Coolest thing my big girl said recently: "How can you tell the world is moving when you are standing on it?"
Coolest thing my little girl sang recently: "I love dat one-two pupples!"