Okay, so my daughter is 3months and 3 days old today. She was born 5 weeks early at 5lbs 1/2 oz.. she dropped down to 4lbs 6oz by 2 weeks of age at her 1 month check up she made it up to 6lbs 2oz with the help of pumped milk in a bottle. She is my 3rd child and my last and I so wanted to give her nothing but breastmilk... well it hasn't worked out that way.After her 1 month check up I felt confident and stopped pumping and supplementing and tried only breastfeeding. She seemed satisfied after, wasn't crying.. she was just so small. I knew in my heart she wasn't gaining the way she should be and dreaded her 2 month check up because of this. Well at her 2 month check up she was only 7lbs even. Dr was extremely worried said she was in the 3rd percentile and that I MUST supplement her with formula. So supplementing I have been, but now it seems to have started a downward spiral. She is drinking enfacal 22 formula to gain weight after each time I feed her and she takes about 4-5 ounces of that... when I pump now I am lucky to even get an ounce with both breast combined. I wasn't getting much before but it was more than that, about a ounce or two out of each breast. I had been taking fenugreek 4x's a day and 4 capsules each time to try to increase my supply. Each time she feeds (and this has been from the start) she takes the initial milk that comes out and then she is done. There is no second let down, she will not continue sucking to try to get more no matter what I do thus probably being the reason why she hasn't been able to gain weight. She just sits there with her mouth latched on doing nothing. I don't think she ever gets any hindmilk and at this point i'm not sure if she is getting any at all the way she gulps down a bottle after. I am so frustrated and just ready to give up because I feel it is and has been selfish of me to keep trying to give her breastmilk when it is just not seemingly working out and she is suffering from it. The LC at my hospital here tells me one thing, her pediatrician tells me the opposite. My 3 month old looks like a newborn and I just really don't know what to do.. I feel heartbroken.. I have a 7 year old who I was unable to breastfeed, a 2 year old, and now her I was so determined this time we bought the medela pump n style and well here I am again.. waste of money I guess. I really just don't know what to do.
Frustrated and Sad Mommy to 3,