Argh why is this so frustrating?
Here I am again. Tomorrow my DD is 10 wks. I'll begin by saying she is sup healthy at 10.4 lbs (born at 5#13oz and dropped to 5#6oz in week 2 before weight started to climb). Lots of diapers, a rare green poop, otherwise normal yellow/brown and lots of pee. I feel like a nursing superhero with that weight gain. Very proud. I'm back at work in a week and a half and my worries are back as she's really no less fussy, even worse maybe than 2 weeks ago. Nursing can be anything from smooth sailing to a battle of head twisting, unlatching 100 times, scratching, kicking, crying, arching, kicking, trying to stand if her feet can make contact. I know all this can cause air intake, which can create a vicious cycle if there's a gas/reflux issue
But the question is why the fuss? Gas? Reflux? OALD? Flow just fast due to normal cycle of let down? Flow frustratingly slow/too much work? Congestion annoyance? Frustration at difference between breast and bottle (we still only do occasional bottle in prep for when I'm at work. This will increase, more on that below). Growth spurt? How the heck do you ever really know? If the crying goes to screeching that's the only time I'm sure of something: pain and that's acid or gas or both. Ped has me doing a Mylanta test (short term only) when she screeches suddenly while nursing. I'm also doing what I can. Nursing upright. Keeping her upright after. Not jostling. Etc. I honestly can't tell if the Mylanta test worked. Early this week we had a couple nights of long crying episodes with pain. I did a ton of diet eliminations: nuts, cruciferous veg, nightshades and citrus. I was already Paleo (since 2011)/non dairy (since 1997), no caffeine no alcohol. Now we just have evening fussies but I've been able to combat long evening cries and screeching. Is it me and my changes? Am I getting better at soothing? Was it the Mylanta? Not being sure what was effective is as frustrating as not knowing what was wrong. If Mylanta works Ped wants to go to Rx Zantac. I feel results are inconclusive.
Last night we slept 9P to 2A (yay!) But 2A to 5A was a 3 hour nursing marathon w/amix of everything I listed above except pain screeches. We dozed some after 4.This is pretty common right now. Again how does anyone ever know the cause(s). We did another bottle test yesterday that went poorly? Related? Irrelevant? I don't know, that's next.
The bottle tests are occasional. The first nipple flow was too fast, but DH was successful in feeding her a couple times in past 2.5 weeks. Problem is she wants more and he now knows not to overfeed. I wanted to test a slower flow nipple, which she couldn't seem to work. Yesterday this resulted in an hour of DH battling the crying baby. Now normally I leave the house during bottle test but I confess I hid out upstairs. That crying never stopped and finally I went down and took her and simply said - let me help. I walked and rocked her for 1/2 hour. She whined and snuffled the whole time and finally passed out. So if I let the faster flow nipple continue and she's bottle fed throughout my workday, might this result in her started to perceive mom's boobs are too much work? On the flip side she's still a nurse all day kid and I dread how long it might take to get into a rhythm while I'm gone every day (looks like we're going to go with an in home nanny. No other licensed care option would accommodate cloth diapers and I'm not willing to switch to disposable. So much for this green society we supposedly live in.)
I had hoped as we approached the 12 week mark the magic would start to happen. But I also knew there was no guarantee. Even now as I'm nursing her, her whole body is moving and thrashing. She screeched in pain. It went on so I did 2 CCs of Mylanta. It stopped, but fussing continues on and off, going from wild to sleepy. Did the Mylanta work? I switched sides. Better but still wild to sleepy and back. Argh. I'm not sure I'm even looking for anything from the forum beyond some 'I've been exactly where you are' replies.
1st time mom over 40 to Alex(andra) b: 7/14/12