Hi there! I never really got around to doing a formal intro, so here goes "my story" so far, a condensed "birth story" and also a "where we are currently" with a few questions thrown in as well.
I have really enjoyed the past few months on the forums and owe A TON to all you ladies who have always came through with solid and supporting advice. I dont have a local LLL, and am really in a Rural-ish area that isn't super Pro- Nursing. It's getting better, but a lot of work needs to be done... anyway...
Basically, I planned on a Bradley Birth from the beginning. Really and truly, was in love with the idea of Natural Childbirth but scared just the same. This Birth Story can be expanded another time..but anyway, I was really confident in my OB care, although I would have loved a Homebirth, but honestly,
I didn't have the confidence in myself to go for it. Just planned on Laboring as long as I could at home until I couldn't stand it anymore. But in my 28th week, at my normal OB appointment, something crazy went down. They detected my baby had a very high HR, Like 400+ BPM High Heart rate. Like, it was unreal. And they immediately got me to HR Ultrasound,admitted me to LD, paper work, paper work, consent, possible Emergency C-Sec..
it was CRAZY and scariest experience of my life. I had no idea if this little life was going to make it,,, let alone how he or she would survive and on and on. But by the grace of God, they got his little heart under control with Digoxin. And I was carried by Angels until 1 day shy of 40 weeks. They checked me 2 times a week from then on.... each time, I could have been admitted... it was just a day at time. Nervous Wreck throughout the rest of my pregnancy.
My Docs were so impressed at how the LO was faring that they were confident I could just continue on and even go into labor naturally as long as everything always looked normal. (BUT, There was one Specialist who always urged me to consider C_SEC at 37 weeks though, I avoided him as much as I could. He made my stomach sick.)
The day before my due date, at my OB appointment, my OB, taking a look at my US, was concerned that there was Meconium in the water, and strongly suggested induction-THAT EVENING. I really felt that since I was considered High Risk now, that I shouldn't fight this, but I just sobbed and sobbed as we discussed it and all I could think of was, intervention=intervention=intervention.
From that point on until the evening when my induction was scheduled, like for 5 hours, my husband and I walked and walked and walked, and DTD, and walked and walked and walked. And I even now know I was having mild contractions during walking, but I just thought I was over tired, and had to stop and close my eyes every few minutes. I had so much pelvic pain all the time anyway. Later, I find out that the LO was posterior.
So, when they admitted me, I had dilated from 1 cm earlier that day to 3 cm.( Not that it really matters right! )
I begged not to get pitocin, so they started me with the Foley Bulb, and then later broke my water.. and so started the pour down of pain. (The water was clear, by the way.)
I labored on the ball, on hands and knees, in the shower, back to the ball, and squatting squatting squatting....and the contractions were so intense and fast, and I swear, once they started, they never stopped it seemed. I mean, really, they were long and always only 1 minute apart! I know that sounds like bull, but my Husband, my coach, can vouch for me. The Nurse just commented that the contractions were coupling.
As much as I had read, I hadn't heard of that. She was great and worked with us, helping to facilitate my breathing, etc, but she encouraged me to bear down if I felt like it.... and I felt like it! (By the way, the baby's HR was strong and steady the entire time!They warned me, if anything went awry, they would have to take him though. That was always looming in my mind with each squeeze.)
And so, when I felt like I had to push, I mean, really really really PUSH, they checked me, and I was only 8 cm dilated. And my OB said, "Your cervix is severely swollen." He went on to say that I would NOT be able to push the Baby out. He was talking C Section and I was, to say the least, disappointed, but having serious, and hard and fast contractions. Trying to process this, and can you say, back labor?)
There was another Laborist Doctor there though, who gave me a glimmer of hope. Suggesting that if I got an epidural, I may rest, the swelling could go down.. Well, guess who then got an epidural? How hilarious is it, I was so happy to have that option at that point! Well, I took a little nap, and the rest is history.
It was a long road after the epidural as well, but the LO was born vaginally, after I had regained all feeling, 4 hours of pushing! SERIOUSLY. He was posterior. And pushing with an epidural after laboring for so long without one. And I was exhausted. And 24 hours in. The LO heart was amazing and so...here we are!
There is more to this birth story... I will post the detailed version. I just wanted to give some background as to where I am coming. So starting out in the Hospital with the Baby BOY was a little rough.. My tailbone was broken and I had some serious tearing.
So, I was bound and determined to get the Nursing thing going as best as I could. I was just told basically that the LO had a good latch, but he was jaundice, and so sleepy, and he wouldn't stay latched for more than 5 minutes at a time. I just kept putting him to the breast as much as possible. Then, they basically forced my Husband to give him just a tiny bit of formula in a syringe, because of his jaundice and that he only had 1 wet diaper on day 1. I seriously thought I was informed and ready for this, but it's so hard to go against the Medical staff, especially since I was still so worried about the LO's heart and how all his tests would come out. (Later, we were overjoyed with his normal results. )
I stepped out on faith and just nursed him once we got home, though. It is something that I have had to make peace with, just like his birth. Things happen for a reason and something we don't always know why at the time. But this is why I have been so obsessive about nursing and making sure that we at least get to do this right, ya know!
From the beginning, it seemed like we were nursing EVERY 1-1 1/2 consistently.. except through the night. Like, 5 minutes or less... and I was so worried he wasn't getting enough 'hindmilk' and that's when I logged on here for the first time. An LC where I gave birth told me that He probably WASN'T getting enough. And that I needed to pump and bottle feed just to see what I was producing and call her, blah blah. Needless to say, I left that appointment very discouraged. Actually, I began crying on the way home- I felt so defeated. I wanted to nurse my baby more than anything but it seemed like I was just not lucky enough.
Weight gain and output has always been good though, despite the short feedings.
I was desperate and I prayed to God that he would just somehow help me get through this and keep going. My Husband called all of the LC's advice hogwash and we just kept going. Thankfully, I started reading truthful and sound advice from WAB, then these forums, and so somehow someway, we made it this far! It has been hard though, but all of those hard times are fading so fast.
From about 3 months, the baby has spaced out from nursing every 1-1 1/2 hour to every 2 hours and sometimes 3. He will go for as long as I let him at times! And especially if we are out. Now LO is almost 5 months. And can you say distract-able! It has been ever increasing since 3 months, and it is really bad now. Like, I can't get him to nurse decently unless we are upstairs, in the quiet nursery... no talking or loud noises, and he is falling asleep and or napping.
Pretty much just wondering if I should throw in a few pumps here and there to keep my supply up? I am still nursing on request all the way. But the requests are getting fewer and farther between! Hoping to hear from MAMA"S who have gotten through this phase and beyond with a good supply. We are co-sleeping and, oh, he has been nightwaking something terrible since 3 months as well. I am just going with all the advice on here-seems like it is very common for this age. And according to Kellymom.
Hope to hear from you ladies!
Thanks for listening!