Re: Breastfeeding is exhausting! Need to sleep!
2 1/2 weeks was when my baby blues really kicked in, but they went away not long after. You'll have to find out if it's a temporary thing or really depression. I would cry all the time for no reason, and then as much as I wanted visitors I would dread their coming over. I was so overwhelmed as a new mom (and I'm 36!!) that I kept saying that I couldn't imagine being a single mother. My extreme respect goes out to you -- when everyone says being a mom is the hardest job in the world, I think being a single mom is truly that! Is there any way you can take the baby to go stay with your mom, or is she too far away? Even if she works, you'll have her there part of the time. I do think that eventually BF will seem the easier route for you, even though it doesn't right now. At some point I realized that I was lucky to never have to think about running out in the middle of the night to buy formula, even though BF took its toll. Sleep is necessary, so I hope you can find a friend or someone to help while you get a nap in here or there. My husband and I were sleep-deprived, and we even took turns taking naps! I hope you can get some help to keep yourself healthy.
Mom to my sweet little "Pooper," born 10/12/11, and "Baby Brother," born 6/23/2014, and married to heavy metal husband. Working more than full-time, making healthy vegetarian meals for family, and trying to keep up with exercise routine.