After I cried 5am - 9am today, I've decided that something needs to be done about being this exhausted and this close to a full-blown break-down. I work full-time, and even with cosleeping I just cannot deal with constant night wakings of my 10 month old anymore. It's not that she wants to nurse, but she wants to latch on and off, on and off, on and off (for 10-20 minutes), until I'm totally awake and cannot go back to sleep. When I try to offer a pacifier, she pushes it away with both hands and cries. She usually does this in the wee hours of the morning (4-6am) and then goes back to sleep. I stay awake and feel awful and tired during the day at work.
I don't have the heart to do CIO, but I need her to let me get some sleep. I'm not able to handle work and mothering and not getting remotely enough sleep without becoming an insufferable monster of a wife and an irritable monster of a mother.
Any advice on how to night-wean her at least partially would be really appreciated.
P.S. Yes, I know this is all normal, but I just don't seem to have the stamina to weather this. Either I get more sleep or end up on anti-depressants.