Lo will be 6 months in a couple of weeks. Today while pumping, i noticed blood in my milk. I was bleeding and dont know why? I had a milk blister a few weeks ago, but im not sure if thats the cause. Ive been on this website evrynight since first discovering it back in Feb. Today when I saw the blood I thought to myself "maybe ive done my best" I have this idea of calling it good at 6 months. It hasnt been the easiest thing for us. Yes we struggled at the begining, but overcame it. I still have os and oald. He still fights me during most feedings. The mornings are really hard. He never wants to eat before i go to work. And its frustrating because i feel under pressure to.get him fed, so that its one less bottle he takes. We dont go out much for fear that he wont feed and cry and ill spray everywhere. I cant nurse walking up because i have to always support my breast while he feeds. I cant seem to get a grasp on feeding him w the moby. Im constantly stressing at work to get my break on time. Sometimes i get my lunch an hour after my first break. I go to my moms house to feed and she tells me 'oh hes not hungry, he ate 2 hours ago.' I just feel overwhelmed sometimes. I love the simple struggle free feedings wd do have. But they are not many. I thought breastfeeding would make us bond more..lol but he ended up bonding w his dad. Idk if its me bf that has complety made any intimacy seem like the last thing i want. I just need to stop being so hard on myself. I feel like its a competition against myself. And if i stop i will have failed. man i wish i had that same motivation towards dieting and excersising. so my biggest concern is, if I stop at 6 months, will I have done the best for my baby?