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  1. #11

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    Writing again now for moral support

    Went to my local LC (works with my ob office) on Wednesday and she wasn't sure it was thrush. So she got us back started with tandem feeds with beautiful latches which made me feel great, It didn't hurt to terribly, though I still had the same nipple sensitivity that I've been fighting with this entire time. Before this I had tried to put babies to breast once a day to keep them from totally forgetting the breast because I never had any intention of exclusively pumping, it just kind of worked out that way.

    So off we went home and about 4 feedings in, with beautiful latches the entire time, I was in tears, my nipple were crushed, I have a blister, one was bleeding and both were purple and scabby at the tips and supremely and excruciatingly sensitive to any touch, even just cloth. I tried to tough it out for another 4 feedings before breaking (I mean full uncontrollable sobbing, screaming, cursing, stamping my feet on the floor breaking while trying to feed the babies) and giving them a bottle. And now it's too painful to even pump. I see the LC Friday at 2. I just don't know what to do in the mean time and I'm living in terror that she's going to make me latch the babies again at her office. I hate to not pump, I know it's sabotaging my supply, and I hate giving the babies formula.

    So right now my husband is frustrated with me because he took 2.5 days off work to help get these babies back on the breast 100% and we're obviously not making progress. I'm frustrated with me, I don't know what's wrong. Never had issues like this with the first 2 pregnancies. The pain is through the roof, I'd gladly take another 3 hours of deep uterine massage over this pain! And now I'm supremely gun shy, I can put the pump parts on my breasts but I can't bring myself to turn the nob, It's like asking a person on death row to flip the switch on their own electric chair. If the LC asks me to latch the babies tomorrow I'm probably going to cry right there in her office. I'm not sure how I'm going to get through this with my sanity intact.

  2. #12
    Join Date
    Jul 2010
    New York

    Default Re: Help help HELP PAIN!!!

    Dear Juneberry,
    of course your frustrated and unhappy. Those feelings are normal. It is such a emotional dilemma when you intelligently know that breastmilk and breastfeeding is the healthier/ biological way to nourish your newborns and you are in physical pain.
    I read in your earlier posts that you suffered blood loss postpartum.
    back before modern medicine, that alone usually did not bode well for the mother.
    Please be kind and generous to yourself while you heal from major abdominal surgery, blood loss, and mastitis.
    You can build your milk supply while your nipples heal, while you heal and while you twins thrive on pumped milk/ donated milk/ supplements if need be.
    If the electric pump hurts, perhaps you might have better luck with good old fashioned hand expressing
    it still takes the same 20 minutes and if you hand express and then follow up on the pump you might have good results.
    I wish there was someway to send DH back to work with hugs and kisses, and get a postpartum doula to help you at home.
    maybe there is one available who will work on a sliding scale or will count the time she works for you as a learning experience...
    Started my family in 1986
    Finally done in 2001

  3. #13
    Join Date
    Dec 2011
    The Armpit of the Universe

    Default Re: Help help HELP PAIN!!!

    Have they been checked for tongue and/or lip ties? Also remember a good latch feels good, even if it looks terrible from lc's perspective. If it's hurting but looking good, try to communicate that to her, though I bet she won't be able to ignore the cursing, stamping pain. I had horrible latch with my son, and some traumatized nipples, so I feel your pain, and can't even imagine the agony of twins never giving the last-used side a break. You're amazing, mama! Try not to get too down on yourself.

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