My son is 12 days old. Breastfeeding has gone fine on his end from the beginning - he has been eating well, filling up diapers like a champ and gaining a ton of weight (he was 7 lbs 12 oz at birth, 8 lbs 5 oz today).
Because he was eating so well, a few times at the beginning I let him get away with a shallow latch just to pacify him and I am still paying the price for it. My nipples are so incredibly sore and painful, with cracks and scabs that just get worse again every time he eats. His initial latch is toe-curlingly painful (especially on the right side), but once he gets going it feels fine. I have tried lanolin, letting BM dry on the nipples, and have been using the Lansinoh Soothie gel pads the last couple of days. They do seem to be somewhat getting better, but I think I just need reassurance that this is not going to be forever. I can't help but keep thinking of how much easier and less painful life would be if I were feeding him formula instead. Breastfeeding is really important to me so I don't want to feed him formula, but it's just one of those "grass is greener" thoughts.
I'm a second time mom but my journey with my first son was completely different - he was born at 31 weeks and spent 5 weeks in the NICU, so he started off bottle-fed BM while I pumped, and it was a much different experience than having a full-size newborn attached to me around the clock. Really, really hard also, but in a different way.
I guess I'm just looking for some reassurance that things will get better. Thanks.