Re: I'm lost and feeling isolated and frustrated....
Your breasts are not turning your baby into a monster. Many a babies seem more "content" when eating from a bottle because bottlefeeding is so easy. They don't have to latch on or suck properly in order to get a relatively fast, constant flow of fluid, and thefore it's easy for a baby to overeat from the bottle and end up so stuffed that he just passes out- and when a baby overeats and passes out in a stuffed-tummy coma, that can look like contentment. Nursing from the breast is a much bigger challenge- it's like learning to dance, with a partner who may never have danced before! At first it's really tricky and there are lots of tears, but before you know it you're gliding around like Fred and Ginger.
If your family is not being supportive about breastfeeding, stop asking them for breastfeeding support. Ask them to give you the sort of help that they CAN give you- making meals, stopping by to throw in a load of laundry, walking your dog, etc. barely 4 weeks after major abdominal surgery, you shouldn't be doing any of that stuff, regardless of how well breastfeeding is going. They could also pay for you to see a professional for hands-on help- a visit with an IBCLC could be really helpful to you.
Coolest thing my big girl said recently: "How can you tell the world is moving when you are standing on it?"
Coolest thing my little girl sang recently: "I love dat one-two pupples!"