BF has been such a difficult journey. My son is 9 weeks old and after an unplanned c-section, bf didn't get off to the best start. When we finally were able to be together (only about an hour apart, but if felt longer) we did skin to skin. I don't remember much else from the first day or so, but I know we couldn't get him to latch. He was very sleepy and my nipples are very large. I pumped and in the end we ended up feeding him with an SNS system and nipple shields. He lost quite a bit of weight, but after two weeks of very intense feeding/pumping he started gaining. The hospital had a good lactation consultant and we worked together there and then I arranged for her to visit me at home. She has been very helpful and I was elated that at week 7 I was able to completely get rid of the nipple shield and also win our battle with Thrush. The battles have been endless, but I really want to BF. I had a few really good days where I felt so successful and then my nipples really started to hurt. I was away from home for a wedding and without much support. They started bleeding, cracking and were so so sensitive. I thought maybe it was because they had never been toughed up because of the shields, but I don't know. I also worried it was the latch. I watched videos, read up and have tried to refine it. I started to pump and have family members give my son a bottle to rest up and my nipples are doing better. I just had another visit with my lactation consultant yesterday and she gave me tips, but it still hurts to nurse my son. I will keep going because it has gotten so much better and I know that BF will be rewarding and worth it. But, I would like to know when? I am not writing this to complain, but I need more support and thought it mights help to tell my story. Thanks for taking the time to read.