Re: Anxiety and Breastfeeding - exhaustion
Sleep when the baby sleeps. Newborns are exhausting, and housework can wait. Slings/carriers are a life saver. You can get some work done around the house and keep the baby happy at the same time.
Your baby is having sufficient wet diapers in a 24 hour period, correct? And you re getting engorged at night. Thus, you have no reason to worry about your milk supply. If you can, try not to pump while your baby sleeps. That just perpetuates the engorgement and is ruining valuable sleep time. If the engorgement is too painful, then pump (or preferably hand express) only enough to keep you comfortable.
Is there some kind of free clinic you can go to for help until your insurance kicks in? It sounds like you might need medication, and there are plenty of BF friendly options. Putting my baby in the sling and going for short walks outside everyday helped me clear my head when he was tiny (and still does). A little fresh air and exercise may help you sleep better too. But nothing will replace medication when it is necessary.
Newborns are exhausting, BF or not. Try to find a doctor, counselor, therapist, etc. to help you with the anxiety. You shouldn't have to feel this way.
K. Sophia - Mama to my little lactivore, the amazing Mr. X (11/10).