Well, I'm back.
I'm the one with the recurrent mastitis (?) on the left side that came back after 4 rounds of antibiotics. It eventually cleared after we saw an LC and I added some suppliments and adjusted my diet and had his tongue tie clipped.
Two days ago, the infection was back, but this time it is on my (previously healthy and normal) right side. I am red, rashy, swollen and painful to the touch from my waist up under my breast, all over my breast, up to my armpit. I have taken a 300mg loading dose of Fluconazole and will be taking it at a 50mg dose twice daily for the next two days, but this is the worst one I have seen. I am really pissed off. I have tried topical lotrimin, coconut oil, taking GSE, ACV, zyflamend, vitamin c, evening primrose oil, my diet is essentially carb- dairy- sugar- and alcohol-free. Bubs is almost 10 months old and honestly I am less broken about weaning now than I was at 4 months but it is still very emotional for me. I never thought I would be forced to wean by my body. It's not the relationship I've wanted—but nothing is working. It's been 10 months and nothing at all has worked.
Any advice would be appreciated. Even just someone to tell me I am not a terrible mother for giving up now. It hurts so much. I'm achy all over and my heart is broken.