My daughter is two weeks old and spend days 4-9 in the ICU following an emergency surgery on her intestines. We had not quite gotten the hang of latching yet, and then I was not allowed to feed her for 4 days of recovery. I pumped and when she was fed, she was bottle fed breastmilk so they could more closely monitor what amounts were going in her system. We've been home for about 6 days now. I thought we had finally gotten over the hump of the feeding battle on Saturday, but now she's fighting every feeding again. It is so stressful for both of us. She does know how to latch on, but refuses to do so. I'm about ready to give in, but really don't want to. We bond so much better when we give up and go for the bottle. I cannot keep pumping all the time. I have a four year old and the time it takes me to feed is long enough, yet alone the amount of time it takes if I add pumping on afterwards.
I went through similar frustrations with my older one, but since it was just the two of us, it was easier to deal with. This one will take a mouthful, pull away to swallow and then start screaming. We do this over and over again. Sometimes, she gives in and latches correctly, but those times are getting fewer and fewer. After 15 minutes, I am just so sad, I cannot do it anymore. I don't want to give up, but I just don't know how many more sleepless, fighting nights I can do.