Hi everyone- I am new to the forums. I have been breastfeeding my almost 10 month old since day one, and not without many MANY struggles, but I'm worried this one may have me beat. I work at least 40 hours a week and baby goes to daycare- my provider is certainly guilty of over feeding (which we have discussed to no avail- switching providers once I can get in somewhere else!) but I have managed to keep up since he was 2 months old by sneaking in a pumping session at night and taking extra time off if my supply drops. Early last week I noticed baby was gradually cutting shorter our morning nursing sessions, but he still seemed fine in the evenings. He sleeps through the night so I only really nurse him three times on a work day. As of Wed morning, he started refusing to nurse. I can't even explain how upset I am. I'm not sure if I startled him (he has been a bit bitey) or what happened, but he arches his back and acts completely disinterested even when I know he is hungry. Then he follows me in the kitchen, stares towards the bottles and cries. In desperation (and before I did research) I gave him a bottle yesterday and then again last night and this morning- I just missed the closeness so much, I would take it even with a bottle . Before i gave it to him, i did try to hang out with him with skin-to-skin and make it all as positive and relaxed as possible. He looks at me almost longingly and will touch my nipples but get nowhere near a latch. He is so active, he isn't a big cuddler so much of the other advice I have found isn't practical... Also because I work today and then all week starting Monday.
Any suggestions? My friends and family are all like "great he is ready to wean, lucky you, you can give up all the crap you go through" or "smart kid knows the bottle is easier, let him have it and pump more if you still want him on bmilk." Am i just holding on for me- is he ready? I don't know, but I am so incredibly upset