So, long story for a short question. On December 13th I was sent to the hospital from my perinatologists' office because my cervical length was down to 2.2 cm. By the next morning, that length was down to 0.3 cm, so I was admitted for bed rest for the remainder of my pregnancy. 11 weeks and a few days later, my water broke (I was 34w5d) and was induced. My DS, Isak, was born early the next morning (Feb 28). Because he was earlier than 36 weeks, he was automatically admitted to the NICU. He was only there for 24 hours and then spent the next 2.5 weeks in the special care nursery. So here's the deal: he nursed the first day a few times. After that day, his bilirubin level shot up, so he became very sleepy and had to go under the lights (the nursing is obviously not related to this, LOL!). He was allowed 30 minutes out of the lights, eight times a day to eat. Because he was slightly premature, he also didn't have the whole "suck, swallow, breathe" thing down. We live an hour away from the hospital, so I would pump as much as I could and bring it in every day. Apparently pumping and I don't get along, because I never pump more than a teaspoon at a time (at MOST). Because of that, he had to be supplemented with formula. After he finished the lights, he was allowed to nurse again, but it was never entirely productive (also, I couldn't be there all day every day, so I was missing a lot of time). We just brought him home last Friday, so he is now three weeks and a few days old. He came home on oxygen, so he constantly had a canula stuck to his face (only reason for the oxygen was the elevation difference...he was born at 5500 ft and we live at 7500 ft). I tried to nurse him for the first few days he was home, but both of us would end up frustrated, and it usually ended with crying on my part and screaming on his. He was frustrated with the tubes in his nose, and because of that would spend the whole time flailing around and ripping at the tubes on his face. I was frustrated because I didn't know how to help him. Well, as of yesterday, the tubes are off (YAY!), but now I'm not sure where to start. He can't really get a good latch, and because of that he ends up screaming and smacking my breasts. He opens his mouth and everything, but I don't know how to help him after that. I think he also gets frustrated because when he gets a bottle, formula immediately comes out without him having to work for it.
Any ideas on what I can do? I don't want to give up this soon, but I don't even know how much milk I have, as the pumping amounts lead me to think it's not much (I have hypothyroidism and PCOS...so yay for the double whammy of low milk supply issues).