I was referred to this site to get support from other breastfeeding moms out there. I'm going to try not to write a book but here is my story:
Our little girl was born naturally on the 14th of February, she didn't latch immediately but we didn't think it was a big deal. On the 3rd day after her birth a home nurse came to our house to do a routine check up on me and the baby. Baby girl was still not latching a losing weight but come to find out, the nurse said she was tongue tied. We had it clipped the next day and I was excited to try and breastfeed right away. Instead of it being a miracle cure, her latch was still off. We had been feeding her with a feeding syringe/tube according to the nurse so that she would still get fed and to limit nipple confusion. I scheduled a meeting with an LC for 4 days later (earliest I could get an appointment) since she still was having problems latching.
This is what our little girl would do: she would root like she wanted the breast and try frantically to get the nipple into her mouth once at the breast but then give up in about 30 seconds by frantically crying.
Also, my milk supply is not a problem. I pump anywhere from 2.5 - 4 ounces each time.
At our meeting, the LC told us that the feeding syringe/tube understandably took a long time to feed with and that we could use bottles to help not making feeding such a challenge. She said that our little girl was nipple confused and she also gave me a nipple shield since my nipples are on the flatter site and that our little girl was having trouble sucking due to this. Our instructions were to try to get her to latch and give it about 10-15 minutes. If she was freaking out, to try calming her but if she wouldn't, give her a little from the the bottle and then try the breast again. If it didn't work then to just give her the bottle and try to breastfeed again at the next feeding. The LC said there was no point to stress myself out and the baby out by forcing breastfeeding and that it would take small steps to get her where we needed to be. Eventually, she said, it would happen. Also, she showed me the cross cradle hold and I was using a Brest Friend.
Well...a week later, I was still having the same problem with out little girl freaking out constantly when she couldn't find the nipple or get latched right away. I scheduled another meeting with an LC who was closer to my home (I really liked the first LC, she was just over an hour from my house). This LC was based out of a hospital and upon meeting with me, I learned she was anti-bottle. She showed me how to let our little girl find the breast on her own and then how to let her get to the nipple on her own. This was neat and seemed to work in her office. Her final instructions were to over this weekend (Thursday, Friday, Saturday and today) feed her only at the breast and NO BOTTLES. This worried me...since our baby freaks out so often I had no idea how she was going to be fed. She said by Monday our baby should be back to the breast. Well...I now feel like a failure since pretty much right after we got home from the appointment, I had to give her a bottle since she was hungry and freaked out screaming till she was red in the face at the breast.
I want to breastfeed so badly but I feel like I'm not getting anywhere. Our baby girl will occasionally latch and feed for 15 minutes but then almost always pull away (sometimes her hands get in the way and she ends up ripping off the nipple shield). But more often than not, she panics at the breast when she doesn't get milk right away which causes her a lot of stress and me too. I feel ridiculous saying this but I panic too. I sometimes don't even try and go right for the bottle since I feel like I'm setting myself up for failure when trying to get her to the breast. When she does pull away, a lot of times I cry since I feel rejected. Breastfeeding has been such a challenge but something I still really want to do but when do I give up due to the stress? Does anyone have any tips or things I might be able to try to ease my little girl into this? I can't thank you all enough.