I'm grateful to have found this site. I gave birth to my fourth child Kaison three weeks ago. It was a very traumatic birth and he was in NICU even though he was full term. Against my wishes he was bottle fed and I was delayed getting him to breast. Then he had three terrible bouts of jaundice and I was advised to continue pumping and bottle feed my EBM as he had lost almost 20% of his birth weight. So for his well being I put breastfeeding on hold again in hopes of getting him healthy
Now Kaison is back to his birth weight and still only taking in my EBM by bottle. I have been trying everyday to get him to breast but he will not latch. I have successfully breastfed my other three children for over a year each without issue so this has been a terrible emotional struggle for me. I want to breastfeed so badly and I'm hoping that it will happen still.
I have hopes that I will find support here and hear of success stories that will inspire me during both my good and bad days. I never ever thought I would not be able to breastfeed but find myself struggling with exactly that. So for now I continue to pump every three hours and bottle feed my breast milk right after. I keep hoping that the next time I put Kaison to breast he will just latch and this will be behind me.
To the other Moms that are struggling to breast feed just know that you aren't alone