My old frienemy, thrush. *sob*
Holding LO upside down this morning (does anyone else have a child who requests this all the time?), I saw the telltale white covering the inside of his cheeks. My nips have always been sore on and off, but his latch is often lazy. I was hoping it was teething, the second cold in a month, distractibility. I'm just not sure I have it in me to fight another long battle with thrush! We had it on and off for 6 months, and I've been feeling so, well, so FREE without it. Today I feel crushed.
I called in the diflucan refill, and will start the round of vinegar cleaning, etc., after nap today. But right now I just feel discouraged. Lttle bub is a year in less than a month, and lately I've been preparing my DH for the land of toddler nursing. but I really don't know if I can keep nursing a toddler with an ongoing case of thrush. Back in my thrush days, a year seemed impossible, and everyday I thought, well, we can withstand today and quit tomorrow. Then we got over the thrush and I grew to love nursing! Will I hate it again? Is it really worth it to continue through pain after a year? When do I say enough?
I don't really have questions. I think I just need some sympathy and reassurance. Unless someone discovered a failsafe cure for thrush, like, yesterday? That would be some good news.
Mother to a sweet boy, born at 34 weeks on 2/11/11.
Proud that I grew 26 lbs of baby before solids, and still counting...
We received banked milk in the NICU. Thank you, donors!!!