.... that is the question.....
I am very grateful to be a first-time stay at home Mom for my first little one. He's 9 weeks old and after the first tough weeks, we have established our nursing relationship and it's getting stronger. I am starting to see the rewards of persevering this far.
Next week, my in-laws will come to visit for a few weeks and I am getting pressure to start pumping so that my husband and I can go out for dinner while they stay and watch the baby. They keep saying that it'll be good for us to go out and get some alone time together. I haven't left the baby for more than 30 minutes at a stretch so far.
I do see in the future.... don't know how soon that will be.... that I will want to express some breast milk so that I can, say, go for a yoga class, or a date with my husband.
But is it too early?
If I pump some milk just to try it out, how should I do it? I have a Medela single pump - forget the name of it. Haven't even taken it out and read the instructions.
I also bought the Tommee Tippee starter pack with slow-flow teats just in case our BFing relationship didn't go well. So I can use those.
What if I pump and there's very little, won't that discourage me?
And have any of you ever felt guilt for giving your baby a bottle, especially if you are a stay at home mom who doesn't have to pump because of going back to work? Am I being selfish in pumping when I have the luxury of time with my baby?
Will my baby forgive me for giving him the bottle instead of myself? Will he know the difference and will it go back to being the same when I come home?
I guess I just need some reassurance that our BFing relationship won't be damaged.