I am on my 3rd day back to work. I am pumping milk 3 times a day for my 4 month old DS.
I work in a cubicle and my company has a "quiet room" set aside that pumping mothers can use. The thing is, this room is not only for pumping moms - other employees are free to use the room to lie down if they are not feeling well, etc. Also, you can't reserve the room for specific times... you have to just go to the room and hope that it is not already occupied when you need it. It is on a different floor from where I work also.
I used this quiet room only once before I decided to try to make other arrangements. There are a number of empty offices on my floor, and I got permission from the admin of our department to use one of those offices. It has a locking door, etc, so I have the privacy I need.
The thing is, even though this particular office is not in a high-traffic area, there is someone in the office right next to it. When I'm in there pumping, I can hear him talking on the phone, etc. I am already having so much anxiety worrying about whether or not he can hear my pump (I try to muffle it as much as possible), and if it bothers him... or even if he can't hear the pump, does it weird him out knowing that I am in there pumping? I haven't talked to him but he may have guessed by now what's going on due to my visits to that office 3x a day and my "privacy please" sign I tape on the door. :/
When I'm in there, I can't stop thinking about him and worrying about it. I don't want to openly talk to him about whether or not I'm disturbing him because that would just make me even more anxious. I really feel like this is already having an impact on my pumping output. Normally I respond very very well to pumping, but during my sessions that I can hear him talking in his office - I output dramatically less than when he's not around.
I'm not sure what to do about this situation. I am pretty certain that my company won't give me a private office to work in full time because they have strict corporate policies about who is "allowed" to have an office vs. a cubicle. And even if they DID let me have an office, I'm 99% sure it would be the one right next to my boss, with not 1 but THREE people on adjacent walls who might be able to hear me pumping. That would not work at all!