Long story short: when my daughter was about 2-3 months old, I had endured mastitis 4 times and, thanks to a lack of knowledgeable medical support, ultimately ended up with the most severe abscess the breast surgeon had ever seen. I required emergency surgery which disfigured my breast somewhat and it did sever at least one milk duct because I could see it since they don't sew you up after the surgery. The entire process was extremely painful and difficult.
But I kept breastfeeding my daughter on the "good" boob, and she's now almost 11 months and we're still going strong. I've never really pumped, she gets it all directly from the breast and I feed her on demand probably 10-15 times a day. (She's a frequent snacker.)
I have become interested in relactating what my husband and I call "surgery boob" for several reasons.....one, I want to know what "normal" breastfeeding is like because I never really experienced switching sides, etc. Two, I do have milk in there and if you squeeze it it shoots out. It sometimes leaks like one or two tiny droplets on its own. Three, I am tired of feeling so disfigured and feeling self-conscious in clothes.....one of my breasts is a large C and the other is not even an A-cup basically and it's extremely obvious! I figure if I am going to breastfeed for at least another year, I'd like to not suffer through swimsuit season etc feeling like a spectacle. Sounds vain, but it's been very hard on my already low self-esteem.
So. I figure it's a good thing that I'm still making lots of milk on one side, but what's the best way to do this? She doesn't really like latching on "surgery boob," so I was thinking of renting an electric pump and just using that until my milk comes in. Will it be engorged again once it does? I'm so afraid of feeling pain there again or, god forbid there is actually something wrong with that breast that caused the issues in the first place and I have to go through that all over again.....
Any advice for my unusual situation would be much appreciated.