Hey, everybody. I'm new here. My baby boy is nearly 7 weeks old and I figure, to get started, I'll post a little preface of what happened during his first little bit of life:
So, Sol was born really without a hitch. I was induced because I was very late, and he came out no problem. I wanted to do a water birth, but they don't have the equipment necessary for that at the hospital, so I did what I could. I gave birth, and the usual, medical routines happened; he was taken from me, dressed up, left (odd, I thought, this part) without a bath of any sort with his birth-canal fluids all over him, and was allowed to cuddle with me for a while. Anyway ...
He wasn't hungry at ALL when he popped out. Everyone at the hospital touched his cheek and he had no craving whatsoever to feed. So, when he was done with everyone holding him, he came back to me and we snuggled. Anyway, 6am (about 12 hours later) rolls around and he's still not overly hungry. A crazy nurse comes in and tells me I am doing skin to skin wrong with him, that he needs to be this way, and that way, and that if I don't feed him soon he will DIE. So, naturally, I get upset and that's when it all sort of started to devolve.
I have flat, nearly inverted nipples. Wearing the nipple shields really didn't help me. I was berated by the nurse (whom I later dismissed), who tried to yank my boob off in order to shove it into my child's mouth while she vicegripped his head and nearly tore one of his ears with her hand. I was sobbing because she told me I was starving my child and that if something went wrong it would be all my fault. I had demanded a lactation consultant the moment I got into the hospital, but they had all left for the day (it was after 6pm when he was born); so I had to wait until well into the next day to be seen.
The lactation consultant comes in and she really doesn't do much to help me; she gets my son on my boob, chats with me for a while, and after a half hour of him nursing, he's done and so is she. I try, and I try, and I just can't seem to do as well as she did, getting Sol on my boob and, finally, because he started lacking wet and dirty diapers, I gave him a little formula, after being begged by a nurse to feed him.
This is where it all began - my traumatic experience with trying to breast feed. So, I've been pumping for the last 6 weeks of his life and feeding him with slow flow nipples. We've battled a hospital stay due to jaundice that the hospital I gave birth at let him go home with, constipation, colic, you name it. I am just so severely, severely depressed because I can not put this baby up to my nipple to latch. did I mention, like his mother and his father, that he also has a short tongue that probably should have been clipped when he was born? His tongue makes it VERY hard to nurse and in fact, sometimes it's even hard to get a pacifier or bottle nipple into his mouth because he can not work his tongue around it. I tried cup feeding him as was suggested and he could not lap up anything with his tongue because he couldn't get his tongue to work.
For the too long didn't read version:
So, basically, my problem here is that my child has a short tongue, I have flat, and nearly inverted nipples, he is 7 weeks old and has been fed expressed milk from the time he was 1 week old. Every week my milk flow has been decreasing in volume and despite my sometimes getting him to latch, it's a trial and is more depressing effort than it is worth to me. He has, in the past week, latched all of 2 times, but for less than 10 minutes a piece. Also, he will only ever go on one side; for some reason he HATES my right boob.
I also do not have a car always available to go see a consultant or to go to the LLL around here. Nor do I have the money really readily available at the moment to invest in a supplementation device, (or anything) which is another problem as well: if there is no milk at my nipple, even if I do get it to pop out, Sol screams, kicks, punches, and gets purely unruly.
Any help with this would be great. I really, really want to breastfeed him, I just don't have the resources, and I've tried everything I have read and can think of.