My son is almost 9 months old and I just don't want to breastfeed him anymore. I don't have any good reason why; I used to love it so much. He is a horrible sleeper and always has been. He has always woke every 1 or 2 hours to feed, since birth. Around my period (which I got back at 10 week postpartum) the night feedings make me feel insane but other than that time I don't think that the night wakings are the cause of my feelings. We co-sleep so the actual waking isn't that bad and I really am just used to it. I don't have any pain when nursing other than the occasional tooth scrape from his new top teeth so I don't see how that could cause the feelings either.
Sometimes I feel resentful that I can't comfort him without him wanting/expecting to nurse. I can't pick him up if he bumps his head or just hold him close without him wanting to nurse. No one else can get him to sleep because the only way he has ever fallen asleep is to nurse. Then the last couple of days I all of a sudden have a huge over-abundance of milk. I am leaking on the other side when I nurse and soaking through my shirt/bra at random times during the day. I am not on any medicines/vitamins and my diet has not changed so I don't know the cause of this but it is extremely annoying to say the least. I have gone back to wearing breast pads after 6 months without them.
Oh, and the kicking/pinching/wiggling/pop off makes me feel crazy. I think that this might be the main factor in my negative feelings.
I know I am rambling! I just feel so guilty for wanting to quit but I am counting the days until he turns one so I can wean even though my goal has always been 2 years! Thanks for taking your time to read this huge rant