I really need to vent...
Tonight I gave my 10 month old daughter her first bottle of formula... She took it with no problem. She has been breastfeeding less and less over the last month. The only time she will nurse is first thing in the morning. The rest of the day it has become a battle. She will turn away, cry and even bite. I can sometimes sneak in one or two more feedings for the day if she is tired and will nurse before a nap. During my attempts to nurse I've been firm, I've been laid back, I've been celebratory. I have tried EVERYTHING! Gone into a quiet low stimulating environment, offer all the time, mix it with solids (she gags), sang to her, praised her...I would have stood on my head if that would work. I am so sad and don't know what else I can do. I'm sure some of it has to due with teething, her 2 top teeth have been coming in for quite sometime...however she has just about stopped nursing despite ALL my efforts. Nursing only once a day can't be due to teething???? I am shocked that she is weaning already. I really thought we would make it to a year and I would have gone longer if she wanted.
She has been eating solids regularly (about three 4 oz jars a day), but isn't all that interested in food either. I have pureed countless homemade yummy high quality dishes and time after time she rejects them. The only food she likes comes in a jar. I am so disappointed that my daughter is now living off of processed baby food and formula
At the advice of a lactation counselor I had been cutting back on the solids the last few days and it didn't seem to phase her. She actually started nursing less. Today she nursed 1 and half times (she fell asleep during the 2nd feeding). I had to give in and give her SOMETHING. She won't take a bottle of breastmilk from me, never would, only from Daddy. Unfortunately Daddy works 24 hr. shifts (sometimes 48 hrs). The plan is that I will keep pumping and when he's here and she won't nurse he will offer her a bottle, but how long do we keep this up? It seems like I am pumping FOREVER to get something. My supply has totally taken a hit. Its hard to know how much milk she is getting from me, but I would suspect not much more than 6-12oz a day. Tonight she slurped down almost 8 oz. of formula in one feeding. That's gotta be better than nothing...right?
I'm so puzzled...and exhausted.
She seems totally fine despite not really eating or nursing. She's the most smiley, giggly baby on the block. Should I just accept that she is weaning??? I am totally committed to breastfeeding. It took us 4 months to get a latch (we used a shield), I stuck it out and will stick this out if its a phase, but if its not a phase when do I give up??? She almost seems frustrated with me when I offer to nurse her. I don't want her to hate it.
Any words of encouragement or advice is sincerely appreciated.