Jacksmom...I am sorry you have to go through the pain. I know how painful engorgement can be. I am BFing twins and still get engourged. Try concentrating on suggestions for the pain/engourgement and work on lowering your supply. It really doesn't take long to get where you need to be. Just think of all the benefits your precious one is getting and how wonderful of a mom you are for going through all this for him. Keep coming with the questions and we are all here for your encouragement and to help you through this.