Hope this is in the right section, and sorry in advance for the ramblings but currently at home on my own and dont have any one to talk too
In a nutshell, my boy was born at 30 weeks and spent 7 weeks in SCBU. He's always been slow to put on weight but he has been consistent with his gain and has put on over 5lb since birth (he's now 17weeks old) He has always been a brilliant feeder and is exclusively BF now, and our HV is more than happy with his progress (as am I)
Last week I had him weighed on monday (he'd put on a whole 1lb in 3 weeks) and then had a routine appointment with the paediatric team on Friday. Saw a doctor who was not very supportive over me BF , and made a few comments over his "poor" weight gain but was ok with me continuing - but we would need watching by the GP. Left the appointment in tears but relieved that we had finally been discharged from the medical bods. It wasn't until we got home my husband realised the doctor had used the weight from monday to plot on the chart again - so his line now showed 5 days of 'static growth' and was nearly edging into the next centile space. I cried my tears and got over how angry I felt only to recieve another flipping appointment today with the same team to observe his weight
I'm disappointed with the lack of support from the medical side. All the doctor seemed concerned about was the (incorrectly plotted) dot on the chart and gave a strong impression that BF was not ideal to put on weight. I'm also struggling with these attitudes as I work as a midwife and have the utmost faith in the human baby to get what they need and for women to feed them! I am seriously enjoying the experience of feeding my boy but am now stressing about defending myself and my baby against the docs - I spent 9 weeks expressing my milk in SCBU and for the first 10 days when he came home as I was threatened with admission to a childrens ward if his weight gain was not adequate, and that is not something I want to return to nor do I think he needs.
My professional head knows my baby is healthy, BF beautifully and developing well. He had a rough start so I expect him to be a little slower at getting heavier, and to be fair neither me nor his dad are big, and he spends every waking moment testing his legs so he will never be a fat baby. Our HV is very supportive and has similar philosophies to me, and has only ever expressed encouragement at his development. My mummy head is now completely worried that he's not feeding correctly/should be feeding more often/is never going to get bigger etc etc etc and I just feel like all my confidence has been deflated . I'm seriously considering not having him weighed again as it stirs up so much fear again (we were in SCBU for ages due to his weight, they required him to put on 22g/day and he'd put on a consistent 20g/day!)
I'm in need of a good kick up the bum really, feel better for getting off my chest. Anyone got any words of encouragement or similar stories?
Cookies for all who've read this, and sorry for the moan x