So after 5 yrs, 3 months, and 1 day - my DD (first child) weaned. The worst thing is I somehow feel like I failed her. She nursed through 2 pregnancies and triandum nursed (with 2 little brothers) for basically the last 18 months. At the beginning of September, I showed her the calendar and asked what day she wanted to wean. She picked the very last day (smart girl). So, last night we rocked and nursed one last time. I sang to her all the songs I sang over the last 5+ years. I was crying by the time I sang the "pop off" song. She was crying too (although I think it was because I was crying). She asked me if I missed her being a baby. I said no - I love the person she is now and wouldn't trade it for anything. I told her I was sad that part of our relationship was over and I would miss nursing her. We hugged and cuddled and she fell asleep. It was a special memory.
I just feel like I failed because I so wanted it to be her choice. And it was clearly me encouraging her to wean. I recently found out I was pregnant again, and there is no way I can nurse 3 kids through a pregnancy. I somehow feel like I failed, even though I know I didn't.
Wow, if I feel like this with my first weaning - what is it going to feel like when I nurse for the very last time ever?