I need help. My son is ten weeks old and I hate breastfeeding. I have had mastitis three times in the same breast, intense burning, stinging nipple pain nearly every feed, and feel so discouraged. I have tried three antibiotics, grapefruit seed extract, lecithin, vitamin c, castor oil warm compresses, cool compresses, cabbage, two kinds of lanolin, a cocoa butter based nipple cream, coconut oil, hot showers, and alternating feeding positions. My left nipple is scabbed over and my little snapping turtle has to crack the scab to feed every time. I've tried expressing milk and rubbing it on. My nipple is too swollen to even get it in the pump. I blister. He spits up bloody milk. I am exhausted and feel lied to; everyone said how easy this is, how it gets better after this week, or that week. But it just gets worse. I am in extreme pain—stinging, shooting pain before, during, and after a feed. My nipples harden and get white and pinched. I don't know what else I can do!
Oh, and on top of this joyride, my son has decided it's totally awesome to bite and yank on me, pinch and claw on my breast during a feed. Joy.
Why don't people warn you how much this sucks?? This is like torture.