In hindsight, the reduction was completely useless, given how much my boobs have grown back. Grr. Oh well.
I have been seeing some help with a combination of hydrocortisone and Lotrimin, but I wish I didn't have to use it because I worry about kiddo taking too much, you know? I mean, I apply after a feed and don't leave big globs on there of course, but it still feels like a crutch.
I guess another part of the frustration is just... not knowing what to expect. Not knowing what is normal and what is not. At my early midwife checkups I was like, nursing seems to really hurt, and kind of got a bit of a brush-off. I am sure it was well-intentioned, in hindsight. I guess I am mostly just venting now.
Thanks again, everybody, for listening. Gotta go put bubs down now. Wish me luck!