Re: Domperidone, should I even start?
Welcome! I am so sorry to hear that you and your baby had such a rough start. I know how painful and challenging your situation was- I didn't have it quite as bad as you did because my LO never needed to be hospitalized, but I did have the torn-up nipples and I did have to pump and bottle feed and do all the teas and herbs and drugs... It was the hardest work I have ever done, bar none.
My understanding is that Domperidone is very safe for use by breastfeeding moms, in particular because dom is thought to not cross the blood-brain barrier. You might want to e-mail Dr. Jack Newman (http://www.breastfeedinginc.ca/) for a more informed medical opinion on that. I used Reglan, which many consider to be the less safe alternative, and had no ill effects to either me or my baby (now a happy, healthy five year-old who can read, whistle, and tie her own shoes, )
Regardless of what you decide about Domperidone, I think you can still get back on the road to breastfeeding without using it. in my personal experience, frequent pumping with a good pump (think hospital grade rental) is far, far more efficacious at stimulating milk supply than any supplement or drug on the market. And if the baby will nurse, that's the cherry on the sundae, since often a nursing baby is the best way to stimulate supply.
In this day and age, you'd have to have lived under a rock for a long time to not know the health benefits that accrue to you and your baby through breastfeeding. So purely from a health perspective, I think it's easy to answer the question "should I try again?" Yes, of course you should. If that's the only consideration. And that's a big "if" for a lot of moms! Your happiness, your mental health- those are very valid considerations. The good thing about your situation is that you get to define success for yourself, and you get to weigh your options and figure out what makes sense for you. If that's an all-out effort culminating with the baby being 100% breastfed, or if it's a single bottle of breastmilk per day, or of it's calling it a day right now and accepting that you did the best you could with the tools you had- it's up to you.
Just one word of advice about husbands- I think that often when a husband says "everything is fine, why mess with it?" what he is really saying is "I couldn't stand seeing you struggling so hard with breastfeeding, especially because there was nothing I could do to help you." I think that if you ask a guy what he thinks you should do, he doesn't know and he looks for an answer that will "fix" things for you. So if you want to breastfeed, or at least give it another shot, don't ask your DH what he thinks you should do. Make a decision, and then tell him what you expect from him in terms of assistance.
Whatever you decide, we 'll be here for you and we'll be happy to help!
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