I just found this group, and to be honest, I'm not sure what my question is exactly. I'm just finding myself a little confused.
I have a 14mo old daughter. We have been very successful with BF and prior to a year, did not have to supplement with formula at all. As she was getting close to a year, my supply seemed to be diminishing. I wasn't getting as much w/ the pump, therefore had to start increasing my pump sessions to get enough to send to daycare (she only goes 2x a week). Once she turned a year, I was happy to be able to add a little whole milk to make up the difference, as I was getting quite tired of pumping at work. I had her home w/ me 4 days a week, and we were down to 4 nursing sessions a day.
So at about 13 months, I started weaning to am/pm feedings (just twice a day), more for me than her (so I didn't have to pump anymore), although she didn't seem to miss the daytime feedings. I did that up until a few days ago, when we missed two nights in a row of the before bedtime feeding. Since she didn't miss it, I figured now would be a good time to wean that feeding as well.
My problem is that I'm SO sad and not sure if I'm ready to wean. However, I don't know that I'll ever feel 'ready'...and from what I hear, it's 'normal' to feel sad since I've been BFing for over a year at this point.
I don't have a real reason to wean (except I don't want to go back to pumping), but I have already gone so far w/ weaning that I don't know how it has affected my supply.
I guess my question is: where do I go from here? Do I keep at just the am feeding, do I go back to am/pm...will I feel this way regardless of when our nursing relationship ends because it's the end of a chapter?
I feel like if I dont have a plan, I just keep confusing myself because of my emotions.
Thanks in advance for any advice/thoughts