Re: I Need Help!!!
Mama, JoMo is right. You do not need to feel full or engorged in order to produce sufficient milk. You only feel full/engorged when you are making too much milk, and your body doesn't want to do that because it is a waste of energy and increases your risk of getting plugged ducts and mastitis. After you have been nursing a while, it is normal to feel soft pretty much all the time. I haven't felt "full" in close to a year, yet I continue to have plenty of milk.
If you have any doubt about your supply, watch your baby's diaper output carefully. As long as he is producing adequate wet and poopy diapers, he getting enough to eat. Good output = good input.
If you need to increase supply and the baby is unable to do a good job through nursing alone, you need to pump. I suggest getting a good double electric pump and pumping after feedings. A trip to the lactation consultant, preferably one who is an IBCLC, is also a good idea if you have any doubts. Nothing beats hands-on help, and even if it seems expensive remember that it is going to be cheaper than a year's supply of formula.
What concerns me from your post is the fact that you are cracked, bleeding, and in pain. Can you tell us more about how nursing feels, where the cracks are, how many cracks you have, what your nipples look like when the baby is done nursing? Also, please tell us what color the baby's poops are and how his weight gain has been so far.
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