Its just overwhelming.. Im only 20 so making the transition from doing what I want, to sitting inside feeding him all the time has been very VERY difficult. It brings me to tears most days. I don't miss doing anything particularly. I just miss my freedom. Im the only person I know who has breast fed. I have tons of support, that's not an issue. I just would like to be able to sleep for more than an hour at a time, come and go as I please (not neglecting him, just having that choice), walk around the house without a baby on me, even something as simple as watching a television program all by myself! I probably sound really selfish, but Its how I feel. And it's driving me crazy. Night time isn't so bad, I don't really mind it too much. We co-sleep, and use the side lying position, and that makes it very easy. But during the day I just...i don't know how else to explain it. It gets to the point where I am feeling negitively about having a baby, period. I love him more than anything in the world, but it's so difficult.
I didn't realize it was so much work..Every day I just get more and more discouraged.
I do like the idea of just pumping so I can get away for an hour or so. But I worry about if I don't have enough for him..then i'll have to just come home and do it all over again.
I dont know how some moms BF til their kids are 2, I couldn't do it. Im afraid I wont even make it to my goal of 3 months.