Re: bit of a ramble and rant. feeling sad...
Mama, don't feel silly or self-indulgent for having feelings. The newborn period is hard on a family. So many changes occur in such a short space of time.
I, too struggled with feeling like I had lost that close , one-on-one connection with my firstborn. But as time went on, I realized that we hand't lost the connection- it had just changes and become more complex, growing to encompass a baby sister.
Have you considered having your husband take the baby for an evening walk while you play with your firstborn? That way daddy gets some special bonding time alone with baby, and you get some special time with your big kid.
Coolest thing my big girl said recently: "How can you tell the world is moving when you are standing on it?"
Coolest thing my little girl sang recently: "I love dat one-two pupples!"