bit of a ramble and rant. feeling sad...
and silly and self indulgent for feeling sad because i have a beautiful 2 week old girl and an amazing 2 year old boy. i think i'm feeling frustrated in my relationship with both of them, mourning a little for life with my only child and finding it hard to get time and energy together to pay attention to the tiny one in the way i'd like to. i think i was deceptively together right up to and immediately after the birth as well which has led to my partner supporting me less than i need and me not really knowing how to ask for more when he's actually being fantastic. mothering's hard work! think i just feel frustrated and would like a little advice on how to share myself between two children, a partner and myself especially while feeding the perpetually hungry little one. also has anyone else had problems with paternal pnd? my partner feels quite rejected by the newborn need for mummy(or at least one body part of mummy) and really struggled when our son was tiny. pumping and bottles was just incredibly stressful for all of us so we ditched it as a concept first time round. don't want the crisis in which the whole house sinks into a mire of depression to hit and i'm really worried that if i can't get my head straight i won't be able to keep it together for the rest of the family. and i know most of this is hormones and i should give myself a break and i also know i could go on forever in circles so i'm going to stop here. help?
Art student and Mummy to Luca born 12th June 09 and Elidi 18th of May 11
How can time go quite so fast