Re: Really struggling with lots of pain (sorry long)
I am so sorry your update isn't a happier one. I know what you are going through is AWFUL. FWIW, I reached the same place of acceptance- that breastfeeding was going to be terrible, that I was going to be in pain for a full year because that is how long I was committed to doing it. At 9 weeks I had the big sores. At 12 weeks I still had them. At 16 weeks... Suddenly I noticed that one of them was getting a little smaller. At 4.5 months, they finally healed. My point is, you don't know when things could suddenly turn around. So keep a kernel of hope in your heart. You're amazing for coming this far! You have to be so tough.
Coolest thing my big girl said recently: "How can you tell the world is moving when you are standing on it?"
Coolest thing my little girl sang recently: "I love dat one-two pupples!"