SO here is the background- I am a high risk ultrasound tech in a hospital that is VERY busy. I have drastically cut my production (both milk and # of patients I see!!!) from doing about 7-9 patients a day to about 4-5! I feel horrible for putting department behind. I am also PRN, so they call me to work, as needed. I get afraid that if I am not productive enough (even though they express understanding) they will start calling other people and less hours I get= less money= bills dont get paid! I try to double pump 3x a day when I am there. First pump I get 2 oz on each side, other pumps I get maybe 1 oz. My son- 10wks old is up to 5 oz a feeding now. Sometimes 4, but I cant provide him enough breastmilk for the next day at the sitters.
#2 issue- I got the stomach flu on thur night, ended up in ER sunday, had to pump to relieve pain and keep up supply. Meds they gave me, cannot BF w. So I dont take them (for nausea). I dont need them that bad.
#3- he wouldn latch fri night, sat all day, and Sunday night after i came home from hospital. BREAKS MY HEART. I try, I dont get upset, I dont get even tad bit frustrated bc I know they can sense that. He just kicks and screams and doesnt want anything to do with it. Breaks me down inside. How can he not want something so natural? (he got his first bottle at 5-6 wks, when went to sitters).
#4- He has severe reflux (on meds), gas, and pooping issues (gets prune juice every day now to regulate or a suppository. He has to go every day per doctor bc he was going every 5-6 and getting SUPER uncomfortable and unbareable! SO far it has been doing good to go every day) The gas seems to be much better on the formula. He is on soy now, after we tried the hypo-allegnic formula, I went on a dairy free diet (incl whey, casein, etc)for 2 wks w no improvement, and the sensitive kind. Nothing seems to be working well. But we are going to stick with soy as supplement.
So today, I got up this am, planned to go to work and couldnt. Stomach aching started again. I tried to BF him, he latched for a small amount of time and didnt get enough to satisfy. I tried and tried, expressed some for him to re-concentrate and NOTTA! Nothing to do with it. I ended up giving him 2 oz of formula. He was rough the rest of the morning, had gas and fussiness. I decided then to stop. He doesnt want to latch, and with all other issues, maybe it was best? I cant afford the BC pills for breast feeding moms ($40, insurance wont cover bc its a catholic hospital) so if I am not BF I can get back on my old ones for $9 mth...but then night came today. My breast hurt beyond belief and the crying started (from me). I just cant give up. I feel forced to quit, I feel like a failure but most of all, I cant even fathom not having that bond we share EVERY day. SO- any adivce? SHould I just pump when I hurt at work, and BF at night when I am home with him, if he lets me? I called the Lactation nurse, she said he may have developed pref for the soy. To call tomorrow when office hours are and talk with head LC. IDK what to do!Is it possible to BF part time? ANd how? How do I know is the soy is better or my milk?